illuminatedflower

I've been on and off dA for the longest, but soon I'll be more active.

I've been so busy since I have a full time job! And I finally got my own place. And its actually helped me get a good phone that I can draw on. It's been helping me get out of this Art Block that I've been having.

Plus I'm gonna be attending Aselia Con and selling my art! I'm so excited for my Artist Alley there!

Let me know if by any chance you'll be going too!

Hey guys, I'm pretty sure y'all have been a bit worried, but I'm doing a bit better. I'm staying with some friends, currently still looking for a second job.

gofundme.com/homeless-teen-need-a-car

 I also have a Twitter and a Tumblr that you can share these if you have the apps/accounts 
twitter: hikarihanozono3 (its the pinned post)
tumblr: illuminatedflowerfield (it's likely the last thing I posted)


EDIT!!! I'm alright, I'm staying with an old friend, and it's also just now realizing that I have yet to fully explain what happened!

 Just set up a small summary so you don't have to dig through my journals I'll tell you what happen with me and my mom.

 Started high school and I don't know what exactly made her change, but I do know it was around the time that I first got my job. She encouraged me to get more hours but I kept telling her I'm a seasonal so I can't really do that and I have SATs and AP tests that I have to take. She then got on to me when I got my second job sister and refusing to take me to work blaming my friends saying they were toxic and barely let me out but it was only because I wanted to hang out on my days off with my friends which I thought was unfair.

 By then I had ran away because I was tired of her offending me and my friends, so I ran away. Roll around next June, I went home to try and fix things with her . She saw it as me trying to use her for her money. Eventually it gets so erratic that she was refusing to let me see my friends or should throw a fit if I try to stay the night even though they were taking me to work when she refused to do so yet again.

 A few nights ago I wanted to hang out my friends, I asked her if she could take me she said why would I want to see those children they are of no use to me or you , besides you need to still help me with Uber and then I'll think about it . It ended to be coming so late that she used to say no against me that I can't hang out with my friends and she's too tired even though I'm the one driving around. So I told her OK I'll go walking. There after I tried to walk peacefully to my friends house and she started saying I don't ever want you to come to my house because you go out too much you are doing bad shit with them, even though she knows these friends of mine they would never touch a blunt or try to smoke or do crack whatever, but refuses to believe me. So in the middle the street at night she's screaming give me the keys and I refuse because these are my keys she has her own keys to the house how else am I going to get in? Eventually she got tired of me and decided to come out of her car and start hitting me and that's where I drew the line .

 Already enough she was hassling me to give her money I already paid for the water bill multiple times she asked for $50 for the electricity I also paid Internet and gas for two cars and I bought a few small things for the house, but still said that was not enough (mind you, I work retail part time, and kf you know how many little hours you get...oh boy, it's awful having less than 20hrs at minimum wage). And to think that she says she's broke even though she has a lot of money in both her savings and checking's and she has two houses made in her home country, instead of fixing our hous, which looks like crap. Not only that she does not work her income was of mine, her boyfriends and someone who's living in our garage. Like what kind of shit is that.

again, everyone, thank you so much for spreading my journal and commissions!

Here are the finished commissions!


and I'm here to feature my commissioners! Thank you again!
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So, everyone that probably follows my journals, you all know I have been getting emotionally abused by my mom, and I don't earn enough money to support much and I had to quit my second job because they didn't give me enough hours.

It's come to the point I've been kicked out of my house because my mom doesn't want me there anymore.

I still don't have a car, and my job is 15min away, I can surprisingly get there with public transportation, but I still don't have a home. I need a car to at least live in it, and get to work.

The GoFundMe link is at the top, and my commissions are always open. (Not digital rn because I have lost the phone that helped me with commissions). Please spread this like wildfire. Thank you.

!!!! Update !!! - Commission List and Features are added.


Hi everyone. I know I've had a long hiatus. I've actually been going through quite the dark chapter in my life... And I haven't had much communication with others (i'd love to log in to skype, but my phone is incapable of doing so) online, I am, alive, but not well.

I just recently got back up in my life because I had a really shitty house keeping night job @UoHD for a month. It was a good pay, but it was killing me, I felt really judged by one of the coworkers and the manager was close to firing me, I couldn't have another job record saying I was fired. Before that, yeah, I had been unemployed, and I felt like the shittiest person in the world. I was so depressed. It amounted to 8 months of being unemployed. My girlfriend's family helped me through this tough time, and to this day, I owe them my life for it. They are such wonderful people.

But right now what I'm going through is something that's going to take me a long time to get out of. I've had to live with my mother again because of certain circumstances, and whoever has been here to actually read my journals, my mother is emotionally abusive as hell.

I can officially say I've had a really shitty month, beginning August. For starters, my Capital One Bank account closed the day I got paid, so I had to wait for about 2 weeks for that to be returned (which came Friday the 2nd), I have a second job and didn't know that I was gonna get paid in a paycard (which I lost and had to get a new one), and I had to wait for that money again for about a week and a half from The Children's Place, asshole decides to charge me for inviting me for some expensive Ramen.

Ultimately, the last thing to make my life even more shittier. On Friday, we were to leave for San Japan, but not all of us were financially prepared for it (as you saw with my situation, my money was missing), and we didn't have a ride to the bus station. We were supposed to leave right after we got done talking, but we fell asleep at my girlfriend's house.

Around 9am, someone broke into my friends car stealing his car radio (it was one of those custom ones too) and my suitcase that had my wallet (so my debit card (I already froze my card even though they used about 100 dollars already), Medicaid, SS, Shot Records and the fact that the wallet was given to me by my girlfriend), sentimental clothes, a Kirby plushie, a friend's Ps4 controller, my Senior Blanket, Sketchbook and my inking pens along with my drawing pencil, my items total up to about 300 dollars and his car radio was around the same. But he's lucky because he can get his stuff back with one paycheck, I'd have to wait about 3 months. I may have a second job, but I'm not getting good hours because everyone is done school shopping.

To add the cherry on top, the cops aren't doing shit to help us, and my mom isn't gonna help me at all. She has no sentiment that I lost my shit, she mocked me instead, That's what you get for playing around. Besides why did you take a drink from the house (I was thirsty that morning and its the only soda I like in the house), and if you had money, why didn't you give me the 20 for gas money for your job and 20 for water bill?

I broke down because it's not fair that she's still trying to punish me while I'm going through and I said, "I'm in a time where I need support because I'm probably never getting this shit back ever again." She responded with, "oh why should i care when you didn't give a fuck about me when I had to go to the hospital, multiple times, even though, ALL of us have witnessed how much I cry about my mom not getting better, me accompanying her to the hospital, telling her not to do certain things because the doctors told me." but fuck me right? It already happened, but I'm really trying to push through but its all in the back of my head.

All I'm asking for is to receive commissions, I really need to get out of this situation.

I'm typing this off a phone, but later I'll update it with pictures, but you can look through my gallery (even if it is a little outdated)

Sketch Prices -
Chibis - $ 2
Headshots - $ 3
Half body - $ 5
Full body - $ 7

*Adding traditional color will be $2 more, digital will be $3 and adding another character (depending on complexity) can be from $1 to $2
*I can do R18 pictures too, please specify in your note that you want that.

Please send me a note about inquiries, and spread the word. Thank you everyone. You all have a blessed day, and be safe.

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This is something really nice for everyone to join! For anyone that is financially stuck, they could really use this. Best of luck to everyone!